Are You Willing to Get Divorced?

When I was about to get married, someone gave me this advice:

Be willing to get divorced.

I remember thinking, “What??? Really? That’s going to be your marriage advice to me? Be willing to get divorced? I shrugged it off as advice from an old, bitter married person and vowed to never let myself get to that place in my marriage.

Then, recently, I understood what this advice meant.

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It’s been a hard season for my husband and me, if I’m being totally honest. It feels a little weird to say that since no one is hurt, or dying, or about to go bankrupt, or in really any danger at all. But still. It’s true.

It’s been a hard season.

And during one of the most difficult days of this particular season, we met with some friends of ours who happen to be really good at counseling people through difficult seasons. They asked us how we were doing. I said fine. Then, of course, they pushed in a little further.

“No, seriously, how are you doing?”

I hemmed and hawed until finally I couldn’t hold it in any longer. I explained how exhausted and hopeless I was feeling. That’s when the husband asked me a question I wasn’t expecting.

“Do you believe in divorce?” he asked.

I paused.

I’m a Christian. I grew up in church. My parents have been married 35 years. I read the Bible and know what it says. And these friends of ours are Christians, too. I knew what the right answer to the question was. But I was pretty sure our friends weren’t looking for the “right” answer.

So I gave them the real one—the one I was really, truly feeling in that moment.

I said, “I mean… I believe in marriage. I trust God uses marriage to make us the best versions of ourselves… and I believe God can make the most out of any marriage. I don’t want to get a divorce—I don’t think anyone does…but I don’t know… I also don’t think God wants us to stay in a marriage where unhealthy patterns are the norm.”

“If both people are willing to work on it and change, that’s one thing,” I continued. “But if one person is working to change, and the other person isn’t willing… that just seems like a recipe for disaster. So, to answer your question: divorce is not totally out of the question for me.”

It felt good to say it out loud.

But at the same time it was terrifying. I looked to my husband, expecting him to look horrified and hurt. I looked back to our friends, expecting them to be shaking their heads at me in disapproval. Instead, what I found were several heads nodding in agreement.

“Good,” our friend stated. “Now we can get somewhere.”

From there, we spent the next hour or so talking about what it really takes to stay married. We admitted divorce was an option. It wasn’t the best option, it wasn’t the option either of us wanted, but it was an option—one either of us could choose to pursue at any given moment.

And something about coming to that realization actually gave me the energy and motivation I needed to work on my marriage.

It made me see how my marriage is not a given.

My husband doesn’t have to stay. I don’t have to stay. Either of us can opt out anytime we want. Something about putting divorce on the table actually wakes me up to the responsibility I have in and to my own marriage.

Suddenly, in that moment, I realized the significance of the “be willing to get divorced” advice I had received before my wedding. The person who gave me that advice wasn’t saying, “divorce is easy,” or “if this doesn’t work out, you can always try again.”

What that person was trying to say (I think) was, “treat your spouse, and your marriage, like there are no guarantees, like relationships are fragile and like this whole thing could come to an end.”

I think they were saying, “If you want your marriage to stay together, you have to acknowledge the fact that it could fall apart.” (tweet this)

This advice has changed the way I experience marriage.

We’ve made several changes to our circumstances; we work less and play more. We make a point to eat meals together, without our phones. We have rituals and routines for connecting with one another. We’ve found people to support us and walk with us through the difficult journey of marriage.

It feels like we’re dating again. We’re moving out of a hard season and into a really good one. Sometimes being willing to consider what we don’t want to happen in our relationships helps us to better nurture them.

One comment on “Are You Willing to Get Divorced?

  1. Initially, I had no idea where you were going with this, but it makes sense. I think I have understood that advice in a roundabout way this year. My husband and I will celebrate our first anniversary next weekend – and we’re thrilled. Our first year hasn’t been a difficult year in the ways so many prepared us before we married, but it has been a hard year. The week we returned from our honeymoon, two of our best friends – we were in their wedding, they were in ours – announced to us they were getting a divorce. We were shocked. Only two weekends before, they were celebrating with us: together.

    Now, almost one year later, their divorce is being finalized while we celebrate one year together. As long as we have been married, our two friends have been separating. We have been walking in a strange parallel with them, but I resonate with you entirely: “Something about putting divorce on the table actually wakes me up to the responsibility I have in and to my own marriage.” This year was a wake up call to potential I had not imagined, the potential to fail in marriage.

    All that to say, thank you for putting into words how I have been feeling. This has helped me process and gain better perspective.

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